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Who still follows this?

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 15:00:48 GMT

Realizing that I still have this app, I am curious as to who still follows this site anymore. Is LJ dead?

Hello, synapse

Sat, 08 Nov 2008 23:27:01 GMT

So I'm in a situation - personally.

I find myself at a loss when I want to say something. Mainly because I don't feel I have the same outlets I used to. And to the ones that have been there, the opportunity slips... I've definitely been repressing many things recently. Fortunately I have my mind to help me - the only thing that has been there for me throughout my life.

Completely single now. It was a nice run, and I did enjoy my time with Neil. He is a great guy with a good heart, but given our positions in life now, it just wasn't going to work out. I'm going to miss Zack, too - awesome cat, truly.

Now trip to Florida... wanted to come out before I went over there, but that may a nice surprise for my brother...

More to life, but at times it doesn't even matter.

Sleep?

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 11:06:18 GMT

Can I just forget about it?

Zombie says no. Oh well.

Would you like a header with that?

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 10:13:19 GMT

Those little moments in time where something could have been changed are sometimes very inopportune.

You have everything set in front of you - great plans, the accounts, the offers, the motivation - it's all there, waiting. Then you miss your train. No matter, you can always catch the next one. But what happens when you're not able to catch the next opportunity. It's over and you know there's not a damn thing you can do about.

Then what?

You could just stay at the station, letting your rage and frustration take over you. Or you can find an alternative route...

In looking for another means, you discover a multitude of selections. Now you have more options that you know what to do with. You can be more selective; given you have so many paths for comparison. But remember, every opportunity has its time frame.

In this short amount of time you have to figure out exactly what will be best for you. You have to do so with faster comparative capability. And you will only be able to know if the path you chose is right only after you have lived it after deciding.

A risk.

Spontaneous behavior - the spice of life. But with every spice, a balance must be determined. Upon doing so, you conjure to your pleasure. But what motivates you to continue making moves. Life being able to change so quickly, perceiving factors that catalyst mutations in everyday life is imperative. Once aware of the mechanisms, in your best competence should conduct your motives in such a way that you can attain your destiny.

Great! You've accomplished your destiny, your life is now complete - fantastic!

Or maybe you didn't - try again if you so desire.

Or if neither end result is appealing, then make your own result. Complacency can be one's gala or a path to sure demise.

But again, only in the eyes of the beholder...

There's not much time left

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 06:07:34 GMT

A phrase that I usually dread hearing. Yes, there isn't much time left. But it's only time.

I've loved and lost

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 22:04:50 GMT

I'll miss you, mate. Even though at times it hurt greatly to be with you, I don't regret a moment of my time with you. I love you and wish you the best of luck for you and your mate. Although it took me a while to get to this point, I can say that growing is sometimes very difficult. I hope I can tell you this before you leave. I really need the closure.

Changes are going to be made. I've all ready made one huge change. But there are still more to come - in my personal and professional realm.

Off to work now.

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 05:34:43 GMT

So what a weird week.

My mind has been all over the place lately. So many things that I have been wanting to say, do, finish, start - yet progress on any of those has yet to be accomplished.

Learned that a certain something is my biggest enemy in my exploration of enjoyment. Ironically, if I want to seek enjoyment, the assistance of this is prudent. It's all in my mind, really - this I know for a fact. But I just can't help but be fearful of having to rely on this again...

So much more I want to say - so much I'm just screaming to say... But I just can't say it. I have no real outlet at the moment. So I'm just going to continue to keep every single thought that just wants to burn out of me bottled up. Until next Thursday that is...

Off I go.

Yay!

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 18:45:37 GMT

21 all ready! :o)

Joy

Bored

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 05:19:03 GMT

Bored as fucking fuck.

I'm obviously bored enough to be writing in here just to say that I'm bored.

If it's possible to die of boredom, I think I'm close to flat-lining...

Well I do declare!

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 18:58:40 GMT

Your Personality is Very Rare (ENTP)

Your personality type is optimistic, curious, enthusiastic, and open.

Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 3% of all women and 5% of all men.
You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Come on...

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 06:50:28 GMT

Dude, Winter is really fucking things up.

More pleasant temperature needs to get here or else...

or else it's just going to get worse.

It can get worse...

Now blanket time!

Ouch!

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 16:39:26 GMT

So I had an interview today.

I was a little nervous about it.

But regardless of my nervousness, not sure how apparent it was, I was offered a position.

If all goes well, I should be working at Home Depot starting in February.

Yay! :o)

But my lip - owww! Took my damn piercing out and it decided it wanted to heal quickly. Well I jammed that motherfucker in, dammit!

Then this bathroom encounter... weird.

That train guy... cute, but yeah.

My interviewer - thanks... I'll take the job, mister. But that is all...

Mister dreadlocks at 35th - awesome dreads.

But that is all for now.

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 08:28:18 GMT

Snickers

Nutty and gooey - you always satisfy.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

Hehe, sounds about right. :o)

So the bullshit must end here

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 03:51:43 GMT

All right - if you are able to see this post, it's because I WANT you to see this!

So it's obviously old news that Matt and I are over - then again, I can't say anything was official to begin with.

Regardless of what anyone says or has heard, here are MY reasons for ending things with Matthew - I came to the conclusion that he wasn't the person I wanted to pursue a relationship with. I am pretty good at determining a person's true character. After some time I began to feel he wasn't someone I wanted to be with based on comments, made in a joking manner, on his part.

And I do not wish to pursue anything with him in the future.

On to Kim...

I feel I have presented actual facts in our previous correspondences. If you still feel you have been wronged, all I can say is that the truth has been revealed. Take into account where you heard your information from and the time you heard it. Also keep in mind your source for this fallacious information and take into account that person's true character. I do find it very interesting, as well as hypocritical, for you to leave unknown your opinion when presenting that of others... Maybe telling him how you REALLY feel about him would be a way to redeem yourself.

Cezar...

Regarding me not attending your birthday... I was going to come that night. I did have tons of studying that weekend but I was just going to complete that at a later time because I had given you my word I would come and it was your birthday. But then after hearing the guest list was shrinking, I was having second thoughts. I had already told Matt about the your party earlier in the day. But since I was already becoming bothered with the situation between Matt and I, I wasn't exactly thrilled to go with just him. So instead I studied for my finals. If this makes me a bad person, then I'm a bad person. Think about the people you consider friends. If you doubt something about a friend, why don't you confront them with your concern. A true friend will tell you the truth.

Tim -
Regarding disappearing and alleged sexual rendezvous... well, you know who you are and the fact that you would lie about something like this only shows how pathetic you are as to say you've engaged in sexual intercourse when in fact nothing did. Grow up.

As for you, you should really learn to read people you see every day. Then again, you're entitled to think what you'd like - no on can change your opinion, even if it's based on some rather outlandish "facts".

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion - that's what America is all about.

It's just annoying when people spit out filthy lies.

How amazing it feels...

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 21:11:02 GMT

To actually get 13 hours of sleep!
:o)

Sounds right

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 09:19:46 GMT

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Oh yeah!

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 21:12:52 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last Saturday I stole shes_so_tragedy's purse (-30 points). In July I pushed jmena303 in the mud (-17 points). In April I farted in an elevator (-6 points). In January I saved a busload of nuns in Angola (326 points). In March I helped candywoman009 hide a body (-173 points).

Overall, I've been nice (100 points). For Christmas I deserve an Easy-Bake Oven!

Sincerely,
guru_dude

Oh!

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 03:58:47 GMT

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Midland "You have a Midland accent" is just another way of saying "you don't have an accent." You probably are from the Midland (Pennsylvania, southern Ohio, southern Indiana, southern Illinois, and Missouri) but then for all we know you could be from Florida or Charleston or one of those big southern cities like Atlanta or Dallas. You have a good voice for TV and radio.
The Inland North
Philadelphia
The South
The Northeast
The West
Boston
North Central
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Yum! ^_^

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 23:19:32 GMT

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Fri, 18 Aug 2006 23:41:14 GMT

OH man! The rush! It's amazing!

Oh man! I love it! I think I'm going to do it again tomorrow!

Oh man! It feels SOOOO good!

I'm hooked!

^_^

P.S. I have it on DVD. Yeah, I'm an exhibitionist. So what? I'll show anyone that would like to see. ;-P

It's probably not what you are thinking, perve. :o)

Maybe maybe

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 05:45:49 GMT

Could be nice.

It would be a nice change of pace.

:o)

Time for change... again.

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 08:56:40 GMT

I went through a time when I wanted change. As soon as I achieved that change, I was content.

I changed my hair colour. It was, or at least I thought so at the time, a pretty drastic change. And of course this feeling was only exacerbated with everyone's comments about my hair and how different I looked. Well no shit, I changed my hair colour. Of course I'm going to look different.

Well it's that time when I once again desire change.

I've actually been craving this for some time but I never went through with it, obviously.

I'd like to get a piercing and a tattoo. I already know what kind of piercing and the location so that's set. But I'm still debating as to whether I should even get a tattoo, and if so, where and what. I know I want to get something related to my zodiac sign, which seems all-too cliche but I really don't care.

I've also been thinking about a few other changes but I still don't want to write about those yet. I still have to come to terms with what I'm contemplating.

Just kill me, he said. Just kill me.

I just want this to stop already...

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 04:12:11 GMT

Life shouldn't be this difficult.

I know the saying "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger" is something to lean on a lot of the time.

But not this... This is just cruel reality...

If life could only have been different...

This is just one of days that I can add to my "wish I didn't have to live through" list.

I hope things get better... :o(

Oh my back...

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 19:02:09 GMT

So I still have another week or so of working doubles at work (which is an additional shift that is apparently an HOUR or more longer than my shift!) I'm sore, I want a drink. I want a message.

I have a date for Saturday :o) (Not Mark - Luis)

It's a good thing I don't have to work doubles on Fridays or else I'd be dead on weekends :o(

Is anything going on Friday? I may be a little feeble, but dammit I wanna party!

I have to watch out

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 04:34:57 GMT

I can't turn into a callous asshole who shows total disregard for others' emotions.

I've known for a little while now that I've come to completely fear relationships. Starting one, being in one, having someone else show interest in being in a relationship with me - anything just freaks me out. Even someone whom I had a crush on now is someone I won't even let myself pursue for this fear.

I used to love the idea of starting a relationship - something fresh and wonderful with a completely optimistic attitude. But I'm just not that person anymore. I'm not sure if that part of me died, or is just healing at that moment, but I'm just not the same. The people responsible for this should know who they are - their actions made me this way. I tend to forgive to easily, but I never forget.

Will I ever get over this seemingly irrational fear...